#04 - Cup
I am being honest. I had no idea of what to put in the 4th cup. I was swinging up and down in the week, so nothing caught my eyes, nothing struck in my heart, nothing rang a bell in my head. The mind and heart never gets connected when you want them so desperately to stay in synchronized mode. One goes in left and other goes in right. Better the control should be given to only one thing, but in my case, I just give it to every organ I guess. So in this oscillating mood through whole week, I was fighting so hard to pay attention around me, so that I can come up with something. Then something really made me to think.
My friend, more of close friend, he was talking to me over the call. We started something about, his relationship topic and then time flew just like that. I was feeling sleepy. I yawned, he laughed and said you should go and sleep now. I was in moral dilemma because when I hung up, I am going to go back to the bad mood, but same time, it did not feel right to talk to him for so much long hours like that. I kept quiet. He asked
"Something troubling you?"
"I don't know"
"Hmm baby, sometimes if something flashes in front of your eyes, you should close your eyes tightly, shut them till you feel it has gone away".
"But the moment I close it comes more than I expected".
"Then Shut very tightly".
I was silent. He continued, " Don't try to kill anything that was once your's, it is part of you, killing that means you are killing a part of you. Find a place to put them. A better place to put them." I don't know what to tell. I was quiet, he laughed and said," Just close that eyes, when you wake up everything will be perfectly fine". "Good Night"
I closed my eyes, but mind totally awake. We can't kill what was once our's. So true. When we try to kill something which we don't want to remember, it leads to pain. Wow!! we are getting pain only because we are trying to kill it. Find a place, to put them. It is like when we put them somewhere we wouldn't take it unless we need them for a purpose. And also when the box starts to be heavy, the heart becomes lighter. Wonderful !!! Yeah, just find a place guys, we will put everything, all those broken promises, false hopes, fake love, untold tears, nasty scars, silent pain. All into that one box and make yourself lighter. I don't want to kill anything that was once mine or I was part of it once. I am going to put into a box, they are used stuffs, they have become old now, they belong in the box not in my heart. And I am going to put the box up in the attic. After all it is your life right, you should be cleaning it. Who knows, you might find something that was lost, while cleaning it. I found his affection on me. I was able to see through the foggy mist, the sunshine. He put me to sleep like a mother. I know I owe him now.
When the days are in between the rain and sunshine, close your eyes and start to clean the room, it is time to find something that was lost.
Think with me, along with a cup of coffee and we will have a sip in it.
I am being honest. I had no idea of what to put in the 4th cup. I was swinging up and down in the week, so nothing caught my eyes, nothing struck in my heart, nothing rang a bell in my head. The mind and heart never gets connected when you want them so desperately to stay in synchronized mode. One goes in left and other goes in right. Better the control should be given to only one thing, but in my case, I just give it to every organ I guess. So in this oscillating mood through whole week, I was fighting so hard to pay attention around me, so that I can come up with something. Then something really made me to think.
My friend, more of close friend, he was talking to me over the call. We started something about, his relationship topic and then time flew just like that. I was feeling sleepy. I yawned, he laughed and said you should go and sleep now. I was in moral dilemma because when I hung up, I am going to go back to the bad mood, but same time, it did not feel right to talk to him for so much long hours like that. I kept quiet. He asked
"Something troubling you?"
"I don't know"
"Hmm baby, sometimes if something flashes in front of your eyes, you should close your eyes tightly, shut them till you feel it has gone away".
"But the moment I close it comes more than I expected".
"Then Shut very tightly".
I was silent. He continued, " Don't try to kill anything that was once your's, it is part of you, killing that means you are killing a part of you. Find a place to put them. A better place to put them." I don't know what to tell. I was quiet, he laughed and said," Just close that eyes, when you wake up everything will be perfectly fine". "Good Night"
I closed my eyes, but mind totally awake. We can't kill what was once our's. So true. When we try to kill something which we don't want to remember, it leads to pain. Wow!! we are getting pain only because we are trying to kill it. Find a place, to put them. It is like when we put them somewhere we wouldn't take it unless we need them for a purpose. And also when the box starts to be heavy, the heart becomes lighter. Wonderful !!! Yeah, just find a place guys, we will put everything, all those broken promises, false hopes, fake love, untold tears, nasty scars, silent pain. All into that one box and make yourself lighter. I don't want to kill anything that was once mine or I was part of it once. I am going to put into a box, they are used stuffs, they have become old now, they belong in the box not in my heart. And I am going to put the box up in the attic. After all it is your life right, you should be cleaning it. Who knows, you might find something that was lost, while cleaning it. I found his affection on me. I was able to see through the foggy mist, the sunshine. He put me to sleep like a mother. I know I owe him now.
When the days are in between the rain and sunshine, close your eyes and start to clean the room, it is time to find something that was lost.
Think with me, along with a cup of coffee and we will have a sip in it.
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